Sometimes, like today I find it hard to believe. Well, I find it hard to focus on the fact that I know I am really important in the grand scheme of things. I know I am and, Hey, if it turns out that isn't true I am glad I believe in what I stand for and in something that made me feel I had faith and something that made me believe in the true meaning of love.

Sometimes I just want to say NO to everything.

Sometimes I just want to shout back, "Get out of my face!"

Sometimes I just want to get out of my car and scream in the middle of the road at everyone to try to find others that are having a bad day too!

Sometimes I want to be horrible.

Sometimes I just want to get all of my dreams and put them away for a while so it would be easier for me to breathe... to not feel so overwhelmed.

On days like this I want to curl up and pretend it's not there. On days like this I really would like to be able to come out of my scrunched up little ball of a body and find that all those things I was trying to hide from disappeared.

Today I really wanted to run into the ocean and shout at the sky and ask a thousand questions in the hope that the waves would answer me back.

Today I really wanted to fake my way through and erase those messages that I didn't want to deal with.

Today I really wanted you back.

I still can't believe that once again I find that you're not here when I need you so bad.

But, today I found something else.

I found me.

Wihtout you here.

The sun warmed my face and I heard my Dad's voice. He said, "Remember the people around you that support you and remember the things you say to the people you inspire. Remember and take action in your mind and turn that bad thought into a positive one".

I do miss the fact that I can't listen to him on the phone anymore. The fact that I don't hear it at all anymore.

So I remembered what he said and I started to smile. My day changed. I remembered we're all in it together and I remembered I was in the true flow of my destiny. Something I love to give to the world. To show and to share.

I am here for a reason and that ONE fact is all I need. I remembered that.

So now I'm smiling when I go to bed.

PEACE

KRIS X

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It's in honour of my Dad passing away... a little lullaby for him from my memory bank!

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PEACE

KRIS X

I would travel to the ends of the earth to hear your voice in person; to feel your touch all over my skin. If I could, I would give you everything in me to keep you alive if your heart wasn’t strong enough to keep your body breathing.

I would be that strength. I would be the portal for you to carry on the life you own on this earth that I admire so much. I would fill you with unconditional energy and love from the deepest places of my heart and transfer what I had, everything in me, to you. The highest gift you could ever give anyone, the gift of integrity and an honour not many people bestow on someone. < Being in love with you is like being in love with a twin soul of my own. I love it through all the troubles and through all the times when I question life, question faith and my ability to carry on or carry myself through this sometimes harsh existence, and no matter what your outer body does to it or me I know that the inner soul of you is always communicating with me through love. The rest of your emotional body is all there because of the lessons you’ve learnt here on earth that sometimes have scarred you. Well, I’m here to help heal those scars and patch them up to the best of my ability. Now my responsibility is to make you new memories in your life that cradle your thoughts and actions with the smiles of a thousand deep hearted kisses.

I hope and pray everyday that you are safe and that you choose the right path. I hope you choose the path to be by my side, to warm my skin and keep my character sane. A light in the dark and a hope I can’t see existing when I am on my own.Through my belief and through my faith I have come to see that being by ones self is a beautiful lesson and an honour to have but being a part of someone else is an element that I cannot live without. The person I have chosen to be with is you and I sometimes get frustrated with the words that have become the language in this world because I feel like there aren’t any to sufficiently describe what you mean to my heart and soul.

Shakespeare did a good job of it and I guess in a way there is a part of him in all of us. He taught us to come from divine love. An innocent place that now some people cringe at when they read his work. They cringe because they don’t understand, because they live in a world of fear and a world where they were taught that to love is to be weak; living in a world ruled by money and false hope with promises that are never honoured and integrity that disappears with nothing but a whisper.

I know which path I choose and the path I choose is to love. I choose to live everything from love. To start with love and end in love. I don’t care how I am perceived and I don’t really mind how I get treated anymore. I’m not going to bow to others that make me feel inferior for being “unrealistic” or “in a dream world”. I miss being me and I’ve gotten side tracked. I’ve lived for others but I’m not doing that anymore. I am me and I love me and you love me because I am me. That makes me feel more me than I’ve ever felt.

Thank you. Love and Light.